Looking back at my blogs while pregnant makes me laugh a little. I was so excited and so miserable at the same time! My last post was September 17, I made it exactly 9 more days before our little bundle of joy decided she was ready to come out and meet us. The Sunday before (She was born on Thursday) I had my baby shower so I just barely got that in before her arrival. We went to eat at Texas Road House in Liberty for my friend Brandi's birthday and of course miss Kolbi waited until we got all the way back home and then BAM, water broke in the bathroom as I was getting my PJ's on for bed. and we made a trip back down to Liberty. She was 3 weeks early so we didn't even have her bedroom quite ready for her. When we left the hospital to come home we took her to Babies R Us to pick out her bedding and grab some last minute necessities. She's the best thing that has ever happened to Jason or I. I get goose bumps just reliving the entire process, pregnancy to birth and bringing her home.
HOW GREAT IS MOTHERHOOD?! I absolutely love it! Kolbi has grown so fast! She's 7 months old now and gets more fun and even more cute by the day. I want to remember. every second of every day we get to spend with her. She is absolutely the light of my life. You really don't understand the love of a mother until you become one. I was honestly worried about it before I gave birth. I was so in love with my nephew Shay that I honestly didn't know how I would have enough love to put into my own baby, I mean I really love that boy. He would come spend the night with us all the time, he was like a son to me, I loved him like he was my own. I asked my mom one time how it was all going to work because at the time I just couldn't imagine loving another baby that much. It's on a whole other level when it happens. She's a part of me and a product of the love of Jason and I. I still love my baby Shay but there's no question Kolbi stole my heart right away from him! The two loves don't compare. They are on two separate levels and I've got plenty to go around.
Not all mommy things are blissfully happy though.....that's just the overall big picture we give/get when talking about our children. There are so many small steps in between that looking back I'm sure we will miss but at the time almost stop our world completely. I have never been so sleep deprived as I have been since I had her. Not all the time, we go in spurts but she really has pushed me to my limit! Things get easier, every step that she gets bigger, and I never wanted to to wish her to grow because they are only sweet and little for so long but there are things that no mommy book can prepare you for.
For instance, I read everything I could get my hands on about breast feeding and still to this day I'm baffled.....I feel like when round two comes I will be a little better prepared but I'm still not quite sure. To my luck Kolbi decided she didn't want a pacifier so she got used to/reliant on my nipple as a security, calming mechanism. How handy is that!?! The girl couldn't be away from me! I couldn't pump to save it and have a glass of wine because whether or not she was hungry,. she would need my nipple sometime in the next hour to calm her down or put her to sleep. Luckily as she's gotten older, I stopped breast feeding and we have transferred from me to the bottle to go to sleep but let me tell you, it was not an easy transition.
Here are my Mommy thoughts for the week.....
WHY doesn't baby weight come off as fast as it seems to go on? This just doesn't seem fair! You can't even move for the first two months. Why can't everything just shrink back up while you sit at home and care for your little one? I know it does happen like that for some people but I am not one of those lucky to be naturally skinny people. It's a lot of work for me!
HOW does a baby (especially mine) manage to poop up their back? Will always be a head scratcher to me! We call these explosions and though she's getting better now because she eats food and poops less she exploded almost every day! SO MUCH LAUNDRY!!
NOBODY needs a pair of baby shoes before they are 6-9 months old and even then they are just cute, almost pointless.
WHY have we been teething for 4 months and still have no teeth? She started teething super early! I thought she'd be early on getting some teeth. We are approaching 8 months. Nothing yet!
WHY do I have to change the poopy diapers? Especially the explosions that require a bath because the wet wipes aren't going to win that battle? Does Jason think I like poop more than he does?
WHY is baby formula so expensive!?! Keep breastfeeding if you have the option! Kolbi goes through a little more than one tub of formula a week (the big ones) that's over $25 with a coupon! I can't wait for her to eat real food!
WOULDN'T it be easier to just eat the food if you like it that much as opposed to making the motor boat noise with your lips and spraying food everywhere, then I walk away thinking she's finished? Oh no! She still wants it!
WHY does she manage to cry every time it's my turn to eat. The girl is like an alarm perfectly set to go off every time we have supper ready and it's my turn to eat. Jason and I haven't eaten a meal together in 7 months!
Now I can't imagine my life without her! Being a mom is the best thing I've done in my life and I look forward to every day! She totally brightens my day in one instant. She's so sweet and cuddly. I look forward to every new obstacle we all tackle together!
